A few days late and mega-dollars short. Sue me!
Last week was, hands-down, the second worst week of my life. The first was almost exactly one year ago when my brother nearly died three separate times in a span of three months. That’s not something a big sister (he’s seven years younger than me) should have to endure, especially because I adore that little bugger (even if by “little” I mean 31 year-old bugger”).
What’s amazing is that I kept myself together as well as I could–physically, emotionally, food-wise and everything. Sure, I sucked in a couple of ways (when depressed, I can starve myself for weeks. I don’t feel hungry so I don’t eat. Period.) but I kept my eyes focused on the long term, the goal of meeting 40 with a decent body and successful stint on the weight loss wagon.
Here’s how I fared on those initial Ten in 10 Goals. All in all, I’m pretty satisfied (but know there’s room for improvement).
Eliminate fries and soda from my diet
Not even an obstacle. Not tempted once. I think I had one or two diet sodas, and even then they weren’t that great. If only the rest of my goals were as easily met…
Walk My Dog Daily
The part that stinks about this goal is when I don’t achieve it, I let the dogger down, too. We did walk at least three days, even though I forgot to put my “dog walked” sticker on my calendar. I know the hubby walked two of those days with us to the park. Now that all the snow’s melted here and the temperatures are above thirty, there’s no excuse not to meet this one daily. I know Dogger is happy to hear me say that.
30 Minute Workout 5 of 7 Days
Let’s see. I know I did Monday and Tuesday, not Weds, Thurs and off Friday-Sunday. Friday would have been impossible with hubby having a game, but Saturday I could have done one early, before leaving for all-day basketball tourney. Yesterday, no reasonable excuse. None. I even remember thinking about it a couple of times. When it was really time for me to do it, the kid had a bunch of friends downstairs. I workout upstairs, on the Wii Active, and it requires jumping and jogging. Here’s why I didn’t: embarrassment. I didn’t want those kids to hear me pounding my heavyweight fighter body on the floor (their ceiling) and making comments and thinking about how fat Jason’s mom is. That was my final excuse. Of course, I can make it up today (within one workout on the Wii Active Calendar) by doing two workouts today. I can do that…if his friends are gone.
15 minutes of yoga or meditation 5 of 7 days a week
For a woman who claims to love yoga (I do) and touts the benefits to all her friends whenever they will listen (I do) I have been LOUSY at this goal. Lousy is actually too generous–it gives you the impression that I’ve actually done something when I have done precisely nothing. Yes, that’s right. Nothing. Not even the Wii Fit Plus–since I’ve been doing the Wii Active exclusively, the Fit Plus has fallen by the wayside. This is one part of me I need to change a lot. Given the demon I faced this week, I need that silent meditation time more than I ever have at any point of my life. And I normally enjoy meditation. What’s in my way? Discipline. I need to go to bed about twenty minutes earlier so I can stop by the cushion for a short session or work a couple of minutes of yoga in after my Wii Active workouts. No reason I can’t start today. I deserve it and I need it. What else needs said?
One positive addition to my day that’s not on my Ten in 10 list has been that I’ve been walking–power walking–at lunch time. Instead of going straight from the 6th graders to a bowl of soup, I strap on my iPod touch and do a minimum of a mile around the school. I’m hovering around the 15/14 minute mile, which is good for me given that I have to dive between groups of kids at some point. The walk leaves me not hungry for lunch, which, given the demon, I’m not hungry for anyway. I’ve been eating a lot less (sometimes nothing, which I know isn’t good but, frankly, I don’t care. It won’t last) and saving my small lunch (usually a bowl of cereal and a piece of fruit) for my planning time two hours later.
The mid-morning (around 10:20) has been doing me a world of good. I feel better, warmer, stronger when I get back. Other teachers have commented and admire my determination (and don’t say a thing about how hard I’m sucking wind by the end of my laps). This was when I had planned to do yoga during my day but the walk is working for me. This week, now that the snow has melted, I might be able to take it outside around the block. We shall see.
That’s my week in a nutshell. How about yours? Am I still the only person still working toward my goals in the new year or are some of you finding success as well? I haven’t weighed myself this week, mostly from laziness. I’ll do that and let you know (why would you want to know if I don’t even want to know?!) And I’ll do better this week. I promise!