Actually, I probably won’t be in trouble so much as she’ll just consider me crazy (again). And most of my family will, too. See, they’re a quiet bunch–for the most part, anyway. Get us together at a hog roast or, as dad and his friend Dann thought in my mid-teenage years, at a square dance, [...]
Entries Tagged as 'Just Thoughts'
When My Mom Sees This Blog, I’m Gonna Be In So Much Trouble…
March 12th, 2010 · Comments Off · Just Thoughts, weight loss (again)
I See You See Me…Or Do I?
March 10th, 2010 · 1 Comment · Just Thoughts, weight loss (again)
Since I’ve started examining myself and my thoughts about fat/being fat/living fat/calling myself the fat girl, I’ve had a couple of realizations. One, I’m a much more complex person than I knew. Two, writing about myself and putting it out into the public does motivate me to do what I say I’ll do (most times). [...]
No, Thanks. I’ll Keep the Bitterness And the Extra Weight.
March 5th, 2010 · Comments Off · Just Thoughts, weight loss (again)
So I got to thinking about all the anger and bitterness I still hold, to this day, toward Deirdre. I know, I should get over it since it started back in the days of cassette tapes and Farrah Fawcett hair flips. Mind you, this is about more than the bus trip and bullying. This girl [...]
Tags:anger·Deidre·resentment
The Dawning of the Age of Aquariass
March 3rd, 2010 · Comments Off · FoodLife, Just Thoughts, Uncategorized, weight loss (again)
Since I take a sort of sadistic-humorous pleasure in nicknaming myself “the fat girl”, (with help from dad, because that’s kind of been his pet name for me for a long time. It wasn’t created from maliciousness, it was a defense mechanism. He’s about 3 inches shorter than me, so I call him “shorty”. It [...]
Tags:bullies·Deirdre·mean girls
Fat Girls Don’t Tell Tales
March 1st, 2010 · Comments Off · Just Thoughts
To continue the thought of the Skydive? Or Walk Around Naked? post, I’ve been reviewing times in life when being a fat girl has affected my desire to participate in life. There seems to have been a golden age of Beth that began circa 1986 and ended sometime around 1989, where, even with a higher [...]
Tags:college
A Mini-Crossroads
March 1st, 2010 · Comments Off · Just Thoughts, weight loss (again)
I’m notorious for setting goals and making plans that I don’t follow through with. Don’t believe me? Want a half-finished novel? I’ve got more unfinished novels than you can shake a stick at. Last night around 3am, I realized that the cruise hubby booked us for will be here in exactly 60 days from today. [...]
Tags:the cruise control
Skydive? Or Walk Around Naked?
February 25th, 2010 · Comments Off · Just Thoughts, weight loss (again)
I’ve read more diet books, articles and magazines over the course of my life than a normal functioning adult should and can spew off so many facts, tips and pieces of useless diet information it’d make your head spin. One of the questions all of those books ask to some degree is a question I [...]
Fat Girls Are Like Onions
February 22nd, 2010 · Comments Off · Just Thoughts, weight loss (again)
Part of the reason I decided to make my weight-loss diary public this time around, aside from the beautifully sadistic, self-induced public humiliation potential offered inherently through social media these days, is because I feel compelled to “think out loud” about why I’m here, at this point, in my life, at this time. And for [...]
Losing Fat…And Losing the Voices
February 18th, 2010 · Comments Off · Just Thoughts, weight loss (again)
When you see a fat girl, what do you think? “Ugh. I hope she doesn’t sit next to me.” “What is she thinking, eating that (insert any food here)? She should be starving herself.” “I’m so glad that’s not me.” “She should be ashamed to be alive/be wearing that dress/be out in public…” When you [...]
Tags:Voices
Misrepresentation and the 6th Grade
January 28th, 2010 · Comments Off · Just Thoughts, weight loss (again)
I had an interesting language and cultural experience with my 6th graders yesterday. What’s sad is that it dovetails right into the whole weight-loss issue and how we, as a culture, are obsessed with skinniness. Not healthy slimming but skinniness. We’re refreshing our memories about the use and meaning of specific prefixes. One of the [...]
Tags:kids say...